Keep Moving Forward

Dear God, if today i lose my hope ,please remind me that your plans are better than dreams.

-Anonymous

Just received a bad news. Sigh. I feel so sad and down. This is my dream, i'm so expecting and really wanna get it but i failed. I'm speechless for a few minutes, thinking, and questioning why it gone wrong?. And finally i broke down my tears, i feel so unfair why i can't get what i want?!.

Like usual, I'm talking to my mom and my best friend about this. And they makes me feel so good. Both my mom and my best friend give a good advice to me. They said maybe its not good for me, i should to always believe that God will give the best for me and never stop trying. They told me to always keep a positive thinking and take the positive behind everything.  

After that, i tried to remember my mistakes until i'm finally know why i failed and the causes behind it.  So, now i will learn from my mistakes, have no high expectations, nothing to lose but still focus, shouldn't underestimate anything even the simple little things and always keep moving forward. 

Dear God, i know this is a lesson from You for me to being a better me. I know you will give me something better than this. sooner or later. I will always keep on believing.

:)

HI from us

Hi guys, how's your saturday night ?
Just back home after spending my saturday with my best friend from Bandung. We went to Ikea, Pasar Santa and end in Summarecon Bekasi :D
Its always nice to have a quality time with best friend. We don't communicate often but when we meet, we chat like there's no tomorrow :))

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Hang In There

I don't like my situation right now, feels like I'm in the uncomfortable zone. I don't know how long it will take but i will take the positive behind the situation, maybe God want me to learn something i've never learned before. 

I dont understand why some people envy with each others's life, I don't understand why some people look down to others, I don't understand why some people have no respect with each others, I don't understand why some people judge each others's life, I don't understand why some people treat each others's bad and i don't understand why some people don't like or even hate me when they don't know me in person. But all that i need is not to understand, because people are different and every people have their way to choose their life, some people spread the positively of life and some people spread the negatively. Positive people makes us blessed to meet them and makes us become better and negative people makes us strong. Wise people said "You have to meet the bad ones in order to meet good ones" and "You have to get the worst to finally get the best". 

All i need to do right now is work smart and do the best for my job. Ignore the negative, survive in the hard times and spread the kindness. I believe God will give me the best, sooner or later. And i do believe in Karma, you will get what you deserve. :)

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Absolutely Yes

Currently watching Korean Drama "It's Alright, That's Love" and i can't get enough of that. The story line is good, slow but not boring, realistic and describe a true love in a simple way. One thing i love the most from this drama is the soundtrack. I love all of the soundtrack, yes ALL. The soundtrack is so good and easy listening it even always stuck on my head. Moreover, many nice love quotes in this drama. Here's one of the quotes;

Park Soo Kwang: You know that saying, "The one who loves more is the weaker one?" I don't want to  be the weaker one this time. Do you know how i can be the stronger one this time?

Jang Jae Yul: You don't become the weaker one because you love more. You become the weaker one because you're not free at heart. 

Park Soo Kwang: What? Free at heart?

Jang Jae Yul: Not worry of needing to get back as much as you give but knowing that being able to love is enough to be okay and happy. That's what it's means to be free at heart. 

Btw, here's my ootd post. A late ootd post. Pardon me, my work schedule is left me tired and makes me haven't much mood to write a new post :(

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24

I love being 23, i love the number of 23, and 23 teach me many things i never learned before. Many things happen in 23, good and bad.

The good things happened like i graduated from fashion school, my parents bought me a new car, attended some interview, being close with good/ positive people, have an awareness to pray 5 times a day and fasting to change my 'loss', try being a morning person and do a morning walk routine every day, eat healthy food, sleep earlier and (its something that i finally can do)say NO if people ask for something when my heart not meant to be.

I also got the bad things like had a hard times for a quite long time, surrounded by negative people, found out that some people i thought best friends isn't the real ones and it feels like i'm wasting my time being close with them, some things i expected doesn't turns out well and being fooled with the same guy.

For all the good and bad things happened in 23, i feel grateful. especially the bad things, it makes me learn more that life isn't about good or sweet stuffs, bad things always happen, and some things will going wrong so always prepare for the worst and take a positive things behind all the bad things happened. 

Back then, i can easily feel bad for people, i keep them nicely, do good things with them, treat them well even if they're not but now its not anymore. I will treat someone like the way they treated me. If someone will try to keep a distance for me, i'll do that too. If someone makes me they're option, i'll do like that to them too. I'm not mean, I'm just protect my self from all the bad things. Life is too short for bad people. I don't care what they say or what they think about me, what i should care is someone that loves me and still besides me no matter what the condition i have. Thank God i have many lessons in 23, now it makes me more positive to start the new day, 24.

Some of my close friend's asked ; 

Him: How's your first day being 24?

Me: Hmm its turns out well.

Him: Is there something special comes to you?

Me: Special about what? a guy friend or something? Haha no. I spent the end of 23 at my hometown and its so memorable. I came with my big family from Jakarta with a big bus and its so fun. Never have a fun yet memorable experience like this before. I'm so grateful.

Him: So what's you wishes for your new age?

Me: My one and only wish is, i wish i will get something that i never had before. Please pray for me, dude! :')

It's Been A While

It's been about 3 months i graduated from college and still here. Still here which mean, i'm still looking for a job, attend an interview, and do some other stuffs. Sometimes i feel bored because i usually busy especially when i was in college. But now my daily routine is just boring and pathetic, like sleep, eat, watching, browsing, reading, meet up with friends or sometimes attend an interview. When i was attending interviews, i always thinking that i shouldn't have a high expectation, like nothing to lose because when i have a high expectation but if the company reject me then i could be so down. All i can do now is, prepare to be better than before, learning more, practicing a psychological test and gather all the information that related to the job. Wish me luck please? :)

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Turning Tables

This year i have a thought, which is i want to treat people like the way they treated me. Its not a revenge, i just want them to feel how it feels to be treated bad. Some people i found just nice in front of me or they nice to me because they want to take some chance. I also found some of my (used to be close) friend is not as honest as i do to her, lie to me, many other bad things. I'm not feel lose, because i have many good people around me. They are make me feel blessed to have them in my life. Wisdom people said "You must first meet the bad one before you meet the good one", i do believe it :)

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Kind of Happiness

Happiness is an essential thing in life. Its based on how we see the happiness itself. Happiness is not only about something good happens in your life, sometimes it comes from the bad things. I believe, in every occurrence there's an essential in it.
For me, kind of happiness is :
1. Seeing my parents smiling at me
2. God answered my prayers
3. Read a nice comment on my blog
4. Get a good grade
5. Already move on from something bad
6. Know that i'm an important part for someone
7. Being a friend with stranger
8. Buy a new stuff and dvd
9. Have a quality time with my loved ones
10. Make a holiday plan
11. Travelling to a new place
12. Eat delicious food
13. Lost weight
14. Man i love, loved me back
15. Meet new people
16. Join an awesome things
17. Find a good lipstick color
18. Get a surprise
19. Eat Durian
20. Listening to a good songs that boost my mood
21. Shopping in a thrift store and found a good stuff in a cheap price
22. Sharing about anything with my loved ones
23. Someone's give a good comment about me or my work
and many more.......
That's all my kind of happiness.. what's yours?

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OMG... its almost 1 month after my last post :'( seriously my college task and test is killing me either my time. Too many task especially when the term is coming up but thanks God i can manage my time even though i just have a time for blogging.

Btw, i miss go shopping with my friends. Its almost one year after i went to shopping with them. I'm craving for thrifted shopping in Pasar Baroe, so many cute stuff with cheap price there. i love thrifted shopping because most of thrifted stuff is a vintage item that so hard to find in the other shopping place nowadays. And especially i love cheap stuff (but in a good quality) haha yeaahh who doesn't love cheap price? :D I rarely bought branded stuff with my own money because i think im still a student and still ask for money to my parents. So when i have (enough) money, i always spend that money to traveling not to buy stuff. This situation makes me want to finish my college soon and have a job so i can spend my money to buy a branded stuff and go traveling with my friends :p pray for me, please? :''')

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The Worst Thing

For me, the worst thing in life is when you miss the worst one. Its so random yet weird, huh?

The worst one is the one that always hurt you, the one that always lie to you, the one that never grow up as an adult, the one that makes give you a fake hope, the one that always come and go like the wind, the one that you know you're too good for him/her and you deserve better, the one is the worst one.

I think life is funny, sometimes you miss the bad people who brings a bad memories in your life. And when it happen, you just think 'oh my god.. i used to be that stupid!' 'how come?' or anything. But, its all an experience, wisdom people said that experience is the best teacher. So, i should thank you for the one that brings a bad memories in my life, because with them now i know how to manage everything (especially problem) with a cold head and i must be more careful in the future.

Always take a positive things behind the problem because in life you will meet many people who will brings a memories to you. The memories can be good or bad. If you often or always meet the bad one, don't worry because the good one will always come after the bad one go. Wisdom people said that 'don't be sad if you lose something because you will get the better change' and i believe in that words. Bad things makes you appreciate the good things because you know how difficult to have a good ones. 

Enjoy every little things in life, because we are all don't know what will we meet tomorrow.

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23

Im officially 23 last sunday. Hard to believe that I'm already 23 i feel like i just have my 18th birthday tomorrow... Oh God :(

But im so thankful to God for give me such a wonderful and blissful life, for a lovely family and friends also for many lessons that i got in 22.

Wisdom people said "everything happens for a reason" but sometimes the hardest part is find out what the reason is. I was fall in love and imagine how lovely if i being relationship with him but the saddest part is the reality doesn't let it be, I'm so down and sad, i used to find out why its gone wrong but i don't  find the reason behind this so i let time flies and now i know what the reason is. God always knows better and if something doesn't happen like you want maybe it doesn't good for you. I believe that everything always have a lessons after an occurrence.

Im the type who likes to meet new people and become friends. I used to think that i have to make a friends with anyone without picky, i really don't care about my friends socialite life like where's his/her college or anything i just want to have many many friends. Yeah, but it used to. Now i know who's my friends (i mean true) and who's not, I'm the type who doesn't like (more) drama especially in social media, i now how annoying when you're with you're friend but she busy with her phone or social media. Oh Gosh...

Its good to have many friends, but are all of them still there when you need them? when you're lonely or need someone to talk to? :) 

You can call me picky or anything, but i just doesn't want to have more drama in this socialite life. Many experience that i got and make me like this. I think, why keep people who doesn't need you in their life? Why being friends with the fake people? they good in front you but talks bad behind your back, why being friends with the people who doesn't let you to be yourself? and why being friends with people who's need you just when they're in trouble?

So its better to have a little friend but they always there when you need them even in the midnight they was fall asleep but still can catch your phone, they never talk bad behind you, they never judge, they always remember your special day, they always give a good reason when you're down and need advice, they always support you no matter what, they know you well. they're the second family. Friends is a family that you can choose. Thank you God i have them.

Once again i thank you God for these many lessons behind the experience, for lovely family and friends.

And now, I'm ready for a new year of me, a new journey, a new experience.

:)

God bless the failed plan

Im on holiday college now for two weeks, imagine that. college holiday JUST two weeks :(

Btw, i already used to have so many plan but its all failed. I'm sad, but i'm sure that God bless all the failed plan :D

Last week, my parents got high fever and i accompany them to the hospital. My dad's got dengue and my mom's got typhus. Oh God, how come?!.. The doctor said its all because of the food.

Only my dad was hospitaliezed and since that, my daily activity was just home-hospital-home-hospital and i accompanied by my cousins who was on holiday too.

Because of that, i thank God for doesn't let my plan runs well because God has another plan and i know thats His plan, i can accompany my parents. During the time, i enjoyed every single time with my cousins who accompanied me. they both funny, we talked many random things about their teenagers life, i feels like i have a sister and its was all memorable, having a good time with them. :')

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Ps. im so curious about my last semester's score. Hope i pass all the subjects. AMEN. *praying emoticon*